Its moments like these that make everything worth it all! Ever hear the quote from Bill Cosby, "I brought you in this world, I can take you out!" That is how my day was today. It seemed like I tried everything to bring the peace, the calm, the sweetness out of my kids today. I read books with them, I drew with sidewalk chalk and played in the grass, I helped them make little foam bead necklaces. I really did try to make the day full of fun and happy times, but as soon as one project was over it was fighting, yelling, and stomping (mostly from me mind you). I just couldn't hack it. I was tired, bored of the same routine, worn out, craving some quiet time, and just not the nice mommy I wanted to be.
So tonight as everyone is asleep I've been going through pictures that I need to write up posts about and I found this one of me and Miss Emma when she was sick last week. She had had a fever all day and was hanging on me from the time she woke up to the time she went to bed. The other two had already gone to bed and I laid down on the couch to unwind. I was able to relax and hold my baby girl without any squirming, or pushing me away. She fell asleep on my chest, which is not something that happens everyday. I just closed my eyes and relished that moment. Dan took our picture while talking on the phone and I had forgotten about it.
It was in those moments that I got to breathe in my baby girl, I held her and was her place of comfort. I hope I can always be. I was her protector, and her security. I know she will grow up and I won't always be there to protect her. She will face a lot of scary things in her life but I hope she will know that I will always be there for her no matter what.
Its in moments like these that I am so grateful to be a mother. It really is the most rewarding job I could ever ask for. And it's moments like these that make all the messes, the fighting, the never ending laundry, the tantrums, the lack of sleep, the little things that push me to my limit, not as bad as I make them some days. I'd take them over and over and over for the moments like these. And that is what I do.